12.11.2007
UC
Well, as most of you who actually read this blog know, I got into University of Cincinnati! The acceptance letter was shocking and very unexpected, mostly because of how early it was! I could start in January, but by a miracle from heaven I was able to defer my acceptance until the end of March! So I will be able to wait and hear from the other schools I applied to before making a decision. It is SUCH a good feeling to know that I am going somewhere in the fall!
12.10.2007
I.HATE.MY.JOB.
Every day when I wake up, I feel physical pain knowing that I have to come in for another day of work.
At the end of each day I feel belittled, stressed, not good enough, dumbed down, and worthless.
I wish more than anything that I left this place out of my resume and graduate school applications...then I would have nothing to lose if I just quit. Its so hard knowing that I have the power to quit and get out of this, but I know I cant.
Not yet.
I know not everyone LOVES their jobs, but I don't think I'm supposed to hate it this much. I have had many, many jobs, some good, and some bad...but none that I've felt like this. What was I thinking working here??
I don't mean to be all "woe is me" and I'm not saying that everyone else has jobs they love but me, but this is my place to vent, right?
I am trying to stay until I hear from school. It can't come soon enough. At this point, getting into school isn't even my top priority...getting OUT of here is!
At the end of each day I feel belittled, stressed, not good enough, dumbed down, and worthless.
I wish more than anything that I left this place out of my resume and graduate school applications...then I would have nothing to lose if I just quit. Its so hard knowing that I have the power to quit and get out of this, but I know I cant.
Not yet.
I know not everyone LOVES their jobs, but I don't think I'm supposed to hate it this much. I have had many, many jobs, some good, and some bad...but none that I've felt like this. What was I thinking working here??
I don't mean to be all "woe is me" and I'm not saying that everyone else has jobs they love but me, but this is my place to vent, right?
I am trying to stay until I hear from school. It can't come soon enough. At this point, getting into school isn't even my top priority...getting OUT of here is!
12.06.2007
Doubts
I've really, really been struggling with doubts lately. I know its normal-I know its good even, but I don't like it at all. Its actually pretty scary. Its like nothing that I've been taught/told/spoonfed my whole life makes sense at all, when I really think about it. Obviously, thats where faith comes in...but I think my faith is on vacation right now or something.
The worst part is that I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. At all. I want to be back in God's arms where I can feel Him around me, and know without a doubt that He's there. How come my desire isn't strong enough to overrule my doubt?
The worst part is that I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. At all. I want to be back in God's arms where I can feel Him around me, and know without a doubt that He's there. How come my desire isn't strong enough to overrule my doubt?
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