All my life, I've been a conflict avoider. Most likely due in part to my over-sensitivity, my obsessive dislike of any contention between people, my bleeding heart...whatever.
I also like to search for truth and meaning. I like to discuss importance of things that we will never understand with others, to get various viewpoints and thoughts.
However, lately I find myself strongly averting every chance of a hearty discussion that I can....especially with people who consider themselves Christians. Do you know why? So far in my experience, Christians can be some of the most hateful people when it comes to things they feel passionate about.
Isn't Christian passion supposed to be encapsulated and filtered with love? Why can't Christians with differing viewpoints have healthy conversations with one another without being so hateful toward one another? I just don't understand.
And it makes me feel really alone sometimes....all I want is to have deep, meaningful conversations about all the things that run through my mind with someone besides my husband....but unfortunately, there aren't many people out there who can keep passion and Christ-like love intertwined during a healthy debate.
Because of this, I feel like I'm often forced to bury the part of me who wants to search for truth and meaning in life underneath the part of me that hates to upset people. Does it really have to be that way?
